My blueprint

I’m trying to get this truth to sink in:

The blueprint for our individuality is unchangeable and perfect. Expertly designed and just as it should be. There’s no need for CHANGE. He bought back the original at the cross. The original you was founded in I AM. Perfect. Complete. Unique. An expression of LOVE.

(thanks, Ashley)

So here’s (part of) my blueprint:

I love the wind – especially the hardcore kind that whips tree branches and swirls leaves in upward spirals. In a crowd, I sit on the outskirts and take it all in. I’m completely comfortable with this position as long as there is still room for my thoughts. It only becomes oppressive if I can’t find that space. I have a thing for fireworks; they are magical to me because they’re one of the only things that can transform me back into an 8-year-old. I notice the small things. I exist at a deeper level than a lot of people ever even visit. I will ask boundary-blowing questions in order to go there with people. There aren’t many of those kinds of questions I won’t answer fully and honestly. I love any body of water – I’m drawn to it and I have to have to touch it. I prefer cold weather and nighttime. My mind never stops. There is always a plethora of thoughts and questions and wonderings dancing around in there. It takes me ages to fall asleep every night because they require my attention before they’ll calm down enough for me to sleep. Music is almost always a soul-stirring experience for me. I don’t scare off easily – depth and intensity and complexity compel, instead of repel, me. I want to ride in a hot air balloon so so bad. Once someone has worked their way into my heart, I am fiercely dedicated and loyal to them, even when others say it’s detrimental, but I rarely regret it. I am an "excerptor" - I lift words from books, movies, songs, overheard conversations - and save all the snippets in a notebook. I communicate really well; both verbally and through writing. I like myself the most when I’m around kids – they bring out good parts of me that don’t get much exercise otherwise. I’m always looking to learn – to expand my understanding and reach deeper levels of truth. I love well. I’m good in crisis – I stay calm and strong and wait until everyone is taken care of before I lose control. I am a good listener; I ask good questions and I remember what is told to me...

... to be continued when I am able to swallow a bit more revelation...